 I went for a walk yesterday and it was coooooold!! But it was so good to just get out and have it envelop me. To hear the crunch of the frozen ground underfoot.
We often hear people saying that they hate this season or can’t stand that season. But each has something to offer. For without the contrast one never really gets to appreciate them fully. It’s like life hey? We are so hell bent on and conditioned to stay in the Spring/ Summer of our lives without realising the power that is Autumn and the wisdom of Winter. And their beauty. We can’t have one without the other. They’re all related and have the joy and gifts that only that season can give. I hope that wherever you are, you are making the most of what nature and life has to offer. To be fully present in what surrounds you. Here is a pic of my - freezing! - moment. Love D xoxo
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 As we enter this New Year, there is so much talk and expectation of change.
But in order to truly embrace a different way of being, we must first let go of the safe, the tried - or in many cases - tired and maybe not so true for you anymore. Change is scary and uncertain but essential for growth. It sharpens our senses and our wits. It inspires courage and allows us to bloom the way we were meant to. When something is worth it, there is always risk. I’ve started calling our two little ones Dos Oruguitas - two caterpillars - after the beautiful song of the same name from Encanto. We catch glimpses daily of the butterflies they are transforming into. I always get goosebumps listening to it. Wonders surround you Just let the walls come down Don’t look behind you Fly till you find Your way toward tomorrow What is within you that burns for, yearns for, change? So much so that you’re prepared to be uncomfortable to bring it forth in your life? With enough preparation and a brave heart, anything, and I mean, literally anything, is possible. Good luck!  Here’s a wee ritual I do come New Year. Thought I’d share. I look to the past, the year that is gone. I look to myself within the course of that year, knowing what’s done is done. The high’s, the low’s, absolutely everything that version of me experienced, right down to the breath that ran through my lungs, energising my very cells. And I thank her for carrying me through, giving thanks to my lessons and loves. I see her standing there in all of her flaws and magnificence. And I let go of her hand. I. Let. Go. I touch my face and my heart. I am here in the present. I listen to my breath. For in this moment, I am still. I am grateful for all I have and count my blessings. I gather my courage and embrace the light that envelops me. Warms me. I turn to the door that lies ahead. Beyond it is the pathway to tomorrow. The journey of what will come to make up my life. I take a deep breath, merging completely with my surrounds, listening intently and drinking it all in. A horse approaches. Whenever I see a horse I know that freedom awaits. I jump on and together we ride the pathway ahead. We gallop like the wind and I move in close as to not fall and place my head upon its strong neck. We release all tendrils of a past that no longer serves my soul or, in which fact, never did. My spirit animal, the tiger ( for she is etched upon my back ) - but for you it could be anything or anyone - makes herself known. She sets me free of any energy that wants to keep me down, head bowed, brought to my knees. She is my guardian. I go into the future knowing that I am safe, protected and by Goddess, powerful. Trust that your future self will be there to support, strengthen and carry you. For they have lived, learned and loved longer than you. Step forward into the rest of your life with bright eyes and an open heart. You made it. You are still here. What a bloody miracle. You. Are. Still. Here. A peaceful, prosperous and joyful adventure for you all in 2022. With love from me to you. Xxx By the way - I do this to music as it’s a balm for the soul is it not? This year it was to Outlander, Season 1, Volume 1, Dance of the Druids. www.deborahmenderin.com Pic via Michael Anfang and Ralph Mayhew    Just a quick hello to say I’m still here!
Been spending the summer, literally stopping and smelling the roses, meditating, exercising and reading - people as well as books, tee hee. Am in the process of waiting for something to transpire, something which I’ve wanted for the longest time. So, whenever you find yourself in inbetween land, do as the above meme wisely says. Tend to the daily rituals of life, walk the earth, observe. Learn to be in the waiting without anxiety. Embrace faith and anchor into the here and now. For everything changes and change it must. Perfect musings for the current Virgo season. If you’re curious of what’s to come, I’m here and available. Be good to you! Xoxo I have had a really hard time finding my voice in this world. There were moments, many of them along the way, where it was easier, safer, to retract and just observe, to watch human nature unravelling before me. My silence made me very good at reading others. But then I found my voice. It came and it scattered people to the four corners. No, I am not who you say I am. You don’t get to tell that story anymore. Not without it being interrupted. Challenged. And there it was. I was shaken. But took up more space. It freed me. And it’s been with me ever since.   Yesterday I went upstairs to my office to do a little bit of work. I sat down and took a deep breath and heard...scratch scratch scratch. As a psychic you’ve got to check that it’s not Spirit being a bit bloody naughty. Hmmm, no.
There it was again, scratch scratch scratch. It was coming from directly above me. And then the unmistakable sound of wings flapping. Frantically mind you. We had a bird in our loft. My husband went up to check and found a juvenile starling, very distressed and clearly lost. Oh, he tried everything to get it out safely. It just kept fighting his best efforts to free it. So quite a while later and after being able to grab it but needing to let it go lest he hurt it, he emerged empty handed. We actually thought it had gone into the wall cavity. So last night I didn’t sleep. And neither did my husband. I kept hearing it flutter a bit and then nothing. I had images of us ripping out a wall to get to it. I put down food and water to try and coax it out. So very early this morning I hear the wings beating again. Really strong now. Then what sounded like it calling “mum”!!! That was it. Loft hatch open. Room closed off. Windows wide open. Again. C’mon baby. Take a risk. Fly towards the light. You’re going to have to get out of this comfort zone cause it’ll end up killing you. You don’t belong here. You were made to be free. The bird swooped down and into the room. My husband and I were so excited. Almost there! Almost there! It was momentarily stunned by its own reflection in the mirror and then stumbled towards the window sill, teetering on the brink. Then it took flight, soaring up towards a large tree outside. My husband and I looked at each other, misty eyed. For there is something infinitely beautiful in seeing something reclaim its freedom and it’s rightful place, especially after a period of struggle. Ourselves included. Fear can trap us, facing it can free us. Have yourself a beautiful week.  I would like to express my profound appreciation for the kind messages and words of encouragement that I’ve received over the last few months. They are like tonic for my soul. 🦋
( See previous blog post ) I’ve had financial, spiritual and emotional support come to me, often completely out of the blue, which has humbled me enormously. 💗 To my hot as hell husband, my lovely friends, my clients, my healers and my beautiful family. Thank you. 🙌 Quoting the inimitable John Wooden : “You cannot live a perfect day without doing something for someone who will never be able to repay you. “ 🌟 And I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to. I’ll surely try. But for now, my days are all about receiving. 🤝 Focus on the good in life. For it is a gift. Watch this space for my return date.❤️ Love to all, Me xoxo 💋  May was pivotal, for me at least. I turned the big 45, we found a great home to move to in July...Billericay here we come! ...and I was diagnosed with Synovial Sarcoma, a rare type of cancer.
Whilst the first two were whooo hooo!, the last one felt like one of those moments in life where there’s a distinct before, line drawn, and then ...after. Since then it’s been the mad dash in and out of London for daily radiotherapy and being meticulous about the conservation of my time and energy. I’ve seen things that have left an indelible stamp upon my soul and met some truly remarkable people. I’ve unraveled the thoughts that I’m never to ask for help and instead placed myself in the hands of loved ones and strangers alike. I’ve seen how incredibly blessed I am. When I first found out, in my usual style I went into fight mode. I was gonna kick cancer’s ass. Hell, I’ve got work to do. But then I was talking to this lady who has travelled this path before and she said something which made me stop in my tracks. She said “ Deb, this is you. These are your cells. Even the cancer is still you. You’ve got to love it. “ And I’ve been kind and compassionate to every part of me since. This experience deserves respect and gentleness. I deserve it. The one takeaway I have had from this part of my journey is how unbelievably powerful love is. I see parents with their children, partners with their loved ones, siblings and friends all being human barriers to this disease, like a wall of care placed around the heart, soul and body of the person undergoing treatment. And that, in my humble opinion, is the only thing that matters in this world and quite literally the only thing we can take with us into the next. To love and to be loved, whether by a partner, friend, a pet, or you loving yourself in your entirety. Whichever capacity works best for you. All the other stuff is just filler. Don’t get lost in that stuff. That’s not where the juice is. Life is what happens whilst we are busy making plans. Enjoy the small things. Now let’s see where June takes me... Hugs, Deb 💖✨🦋 xoxo
I left school at age 15 due to some pretty intense bullying. Although I had been placed in another school where I’d met a lovely girl to help me try overcome this, anxiety and panic attacks had bitten hard and I didn’t really shake them for many, many years after. They were so crippling that I developed agoraphobia which rendered me unable to go out in public. I’d always been a highly sensitive child but my sensitivity had really begun to turn on me. It was during this time that I got put into a program for early school leavers and kids who were really struggling. Being pretty much paint by numbers it was kind of depressing because no one really wanted to be there.
Then she arrived. Sure, it seemed like a normal day at first. But then I heard a click of heels coming down the corridor and in burst this lady, dressed head to toe in red and with a sleek blonde bob. I immediately sat up. She was unlike anyone, energetically speaking, I’d ever encountered. Holy guacamole and she also spoke with this amazing Dutch accent. Her name was Anyes. This woman gave more of a damn about the kids sitting in the room than even they did for themselves. She spoke with optimism and passion. She was strict and commanded respect but was also compassionate and kind. She was so into what she was teaching. I had had many teachers in my lifetime but none were actually born to teach. This woman was. She gave me hope. She reignited my dreams. Hell, she helped me see I even had them in the first place. She made me realise that I was more than where I’d come from, my socioeconomic background, my current place in my life. She lifted my vision and reminded me, even just through the way she dressed and spoke that there was a big wild world out there. And I could be a part of it. And I didn’t have to compromise my essence to do so. I started to step out, quite literally, and tentatively joined the land of the living again. None of it was easy. 30 years on, the path I’ve chosen still isn’tand I stumbled many times - who hasn’t? - but its the only one for me. When I first stepped up on the runway with my modelling, my mother rejoiced like I’d just climbed Everest. Maybe I will one day. The climb, you see, had been that arduous. Feel the fear and do it anyway. This is coming from a person who very almost wasn’t here because of it. Fear I mean. I wanted to share this to help you see that I am a living, breathing example of what someone being true to their passion can do. She ignited my world and changed my life forever. To heed your calling is one of your most gracious honours, no matter how noble or humble. So be brave, if you get knocked down 9 times, get up 10, find your courage, pursue your passion with dignity and set the damn room on fire. It’s now or never baby. And by the way. Anyes was an Aries. We’ve all got it in us, somewhere. Go find it. Anyes…from this world to where you are are in the next, thank you from the bottom of my soul. xxxx New Moon in Aries LON April 5 9:50am SYD April 5 7:50pm NY April 5 4:50am  Something pretty significant occurs in the skies on March the 6th 2019. Uranus, THE planet of change and enlightenment, moves into the decidedly change averse earth sign of Taurus. It's got a while to get cosy as its stay is for the next 7 years, although cosy may not be my first choice of word. B. I. G. to say the least.
So what to expect? In order to gauge the seismic shifts to come one may choose to look way back to when this unorthodox planet last graced this peace loving sign, around 85 years ago. The main Taurus themes of wealth, resource distribution, our connection to the earth, food, farming, our relationship to the role of women and the feminine principle in society - Taurus is ruled by über feminine Venus - all underwent a revolution. The zeitgeist shifted from the need to assert national identity in a confronting and warlike manner, to putting real effort and strategy into creating something of lasting value which supported those ideals, whether for good or for ill. It was during this time that Hitler, a Taurus, announced that the Third Reich would last one thousand years. Women became an integral part of the war effort and rationing was tight. Agriculture was also hit hard with the Dust Bowl period in the US adding to the impact of the Great Depression. So keep your eyes open for changes to environmental policies and the way in which we regard our food and farming. As a collective we may finally grasp the fact that no other species on earth actively destroys its own habitat and that if we stand a chance we must band together and tighten our belts and lifestyles to ensure the survival of the planet. Governments will be challenged to reflect the will of the people. Radical alternatives to the wasteful manner in which we distribute our food and resources as well as geoengineering will also make headlines. Technology that supports sustainability and ecology moves into the mainstream. Uranus is very non gender specific and Venus is beauty therefore our notion of what is attractive in the beauty industries and the arts gets a makeover. Androgyny and a very non cisgender movement will embed into our culture. LGBTQ and women's rights supporters will achieve a louder voice. The money centres of the world shift and new superpowers may emerge. Cryptocurrencies or cashless societies become viable options. Our views on land ownership and its impact on the animal and plant worlds all fall under the gaze of Uranus. On the same day think master Mercury moves into retrograde and the New Moon in Pisces conjuncts visionary Neptune turning our thoughts within to see if our innermost lives correlate with what we see around us. By December 2019 we will have a total of 4 powerful outer planets in the earth signs. The call of nature, ho ho, will be super strong. Yes, Uranus is the great change maker, but we can be strong and grounded amidst the chaos. When we are in tune with our own patterns and cycles, our bodies well rested and nourished, we can then embrace the higher purpose of this pivotal time. To set our sights on the future and the generations yet to come, to be part of the solution at an individual level and to leave your corner of the world a better place than how you found it. For you see my friends, the most flexible and resourceful shall, indeed, inherit the earth. Pic courtesy of Unsplash |
AuthorI'm a 4th generation Psychic, Astrologer and Tarot reader with over 20 years professional experience. This is my quirky, down-to-earth and honest portrayal of the day to day life of a reader, various channeled messages and astro lore. Enjoy! Ask questions, have fun, explore. Thanks for visiting! 
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